use your head, and follow your heart!!

before we got together i told him the next guy i get into a relationship with i want him to be the last and daniel was like i totally understand thats totally what i want and he asked me out like 2 times and both times i said no cuz i really wanted to make sure it was for reals this time so finally i said id be his gf and things were pretty good and i really thought it was going great then i started feeling shut out and like he never wanted to listen to what i had to say and bunch of stuff so i stopped telling him what was wrong and like i was really worried about school and work and stuff and i was really stressed and he never wanted to talk about it he always said it was my fault i wanted to go to that school so i stopped telling him stuff and then one day he was like tiffany are u cheating on me? and i was lk no and then he went off on how terrible of a gf i was and how i wasn’t showing him enough affection and all this crap and i was lk I’m trying my hardest u never wanna listen to way i have to say so I’m doing it on my own!! and he just kept blaming me and all this crap and because i really wanted it to work i said sorry for being distant and i would work on being there for him so i tried talking to him more and hanging out with him when ev i could and everything and one night we were hang in out and my friend txtd me that he couldn’t wait to see me the next day and daniel flipped i was lk i have nooo idea y he txtd me that i was lk were friends lk he’s my lil bro and he was lk omgosh tiff u txt in guys and i was lk i knew him before we were together and we have a class together and i dnt hang out with him now because i have a bf and we dnt even sit together in class lk i have no idea and then we were good and he was lk well it better not happen again and then me and my friends choose to go to knotts and i told him i was going but didnt invite him and he flipped out how i dnt involve him in my life and all this crap so the next time me and my friends wantd to go to the beach i told him we were going but he couldn’t go that day so i changed the day for him and half my friends couldn’t go so then he tells me the night befre we leave that he has an interview the next day @11 mind u were supposed to leave for the beach early in the morning so i have to tell my friends we can’t go til after his interview then non of them could go so i went to his stupid interview and we went to the beach i didn’t complain cuz i wanted to hang out with him then we get to the beach and i had to beeeg him to change and he still left his shirt on and was a crab bout it and i still didn’t complain i was lk ok and then one sunday my friend daniel reeder from victorville txtd me and daniel saw it on my phone and all i said back was hey and i only txtd him back to be nice lk i only txtd him back once and then i stopped and daniel saw it and flipped!! and was lk omgoosh u know i dnt lk him and all this crap and i was lk he’s my friend I’m at least gonna say hi and not ignore him completely!! u know and he said i was cheating on him and that i never did anything for him and on and on and on…and i was getting tired of his pointless drama and not being appriaceted because i put sooo much work into that relationship and then my birthday comes and he doesn’t get me anything (o ya he’s been promising me white vans since christmas which he never bought…and its kinda big story bout the vans because i could have got white toms and i was gonna buy them and he was lk nooo i will buy u vans i dnt lk toms and all this crap so i didn’t buy the toms cuz he sad he’d buy the vans) so i told him for my bday he can just get me the vans he’d been promising and on my bday he was lk u know i dnt have money right now bt ill get ur present and give it to u in 2 days so i wasn’t expecting anything and then he said he’d take me to lunch on day so i drove to his work and then he took me to idllywild and we had lunch and we drove down and then he was lk i would stop at the mall so u could pick out ur present bt we dnt have time so we will do it later and i was lk ok….so dumb me i put up with his crap for another month and how he kept promising me a bday present and then i find out that he got matt stuff for his apartment and i was lk way the hell u got matt somthin bt not ur gf!! ( he was always lk I’m ur bf!! and ur always putting ur friends above me but tiff IM UR BF!!!) and i was really mad and ya bt i didn’t say anything and then I’ve really been drawn to grow closer to God and me and daniel didn’t have that and i really want that with my future husband and so i told daniel lk i really want our relationship to grow through God and ya he flipped out and all this stuff and then finally he was lk well then sit with me n church way ev so that was lk a sunday night and then we barley talks that week cuz he’s soooo busy at work and all this stuff but if I’m too busy for him all hell breaks loose ok so anyways on wedneday we didn’t talk and so i called him that night and he was lk i just got in bed and i was lk well how was ur day i haunt talks to u and he was lk I’m tired and i was lk ok ill ttyl then so the next morning i txtd him and then he didn’t reply so i was lk omgooosh and then i see on fb that he’s on his way to the beach and i was lk way the heck so i txt him again and ask wats up and he was lk driven and i was lk driving aren’t u in school and he walk FUCK and i said wat and he was lk I’m on my way to the beach and i was lk wow daniel and then he nvr txtd or called me til that night he called me once bt i didn’t answer then he sends me a  and i didn’t txt him back so then the next day he txts me round 1sh and says sup and i didn’t txt him i was lk way the heck!! and then fri night he txts me somthin how I’m childish not txt in him back or answering his phone calls and then i was sooo mad i went off i told him all the things I’ve done for him and all the crap that he’s pulled and then how he blames me for going to knots without him and then he goes to the beach and doesn’t even freaking tell me he was going!!!! omgooosh i was pissed so to make this part shorter he was being a jerk and was lk ya we need to talk and he wanted me to drive to matts house to talk about it!! i was lk ur the one that messed up i am not driving anywhere bt home!! and then ya he was being dumb and then didn’t txt me back and then the next morning he calld me to meet up with him at his convience!!!! so i was lk ill call u..so i didn’t want to but i was lk i might as well just talk to him because i was sooo over it and so we meet up and he gets in my car and stares at me then says whats up? i was lk when u gonna explain urself and he was lk i have nothn to explain and all this crap and started being daniel and went off on how he’s never done anything wrong and ya saying stuff to make me look dumb and i was lk shut up and listen to me and i explained in detail what i told him lk 10 times the night before how i desirve better than a guy that I’m not his first priority and how I’m done with his broken promises and how i always took the fall for everything that went wrong in our relationship and how he never said sorry!! and i gave him example after example and example how i was right and i was lk I AM UR GF cuz he always did that to me lol and i finished with i deserve better then this and I’m done with not getting what i deserve were over and done!! and he looked at me and was lk can we be friends and i was lk get out of my car!! and he said it again and i was lk get out of my car i have to go to work! and he got out and deleted our relationship status that day …through that fight i never brought up money or the shoes or anything i didn’t want him to say i broke up with him cuz he didn’t buy me vans so i kept it completely out of the conversations…and then i saw him the next day at church and i gave him his gym shorts back and then we haunt talk since but he posted on fb lk the next day how he was single and wanted to chill and then how he was with his ex lk 3 days after we broke up and then they were in a relationship lk a week after….i hope he’s happy lol…and i just saw in my newsfeed her pic she tagged him in and her captions lk how he choose her over me lol and I’m just lk ooookay i wonder what he told u cuz sweet heart i had him waaay before u ever did lol…. but ya i dnt want him in my life cuz i realized thaatt i dnt want friends lk that and I’ve really grown closer to God through this all and its been an amazing experience but also a hard one…it was and sometimes is still really hard bt i knw theres someone special out there and I’m really focusing on me and not putting a bandaid over the pain but getting healed and then moving on[=